this is not a motivational post.

gue nggak akan bilang “you’re stronger than you think”.

karena kadang kita emang capek aja dan nggak kuat-kuat amat.

also, put the "comeback stronger" to bin.

karena kalo ga pengen atau belum pengen, ntar aja dulu.

perasaan tak berdaya itu manusiawi.

kita nggak harus hebat setiap hari, kan?

sometimes surviving is already a lot.

kadang bukan soal gagal.

we are tired of pretending we have potential.
but here’s the plot twist:
we actually believed we did.

"gue pikir gue keren."
"gue pikir gue beda."
"gue pikir bentar lagi juga bersinar.”

turns out?
we are just fine. and painfully average.

the delusion hurts more than the failure.

karena kita nggak dibenturkan sama kenyataan.

tapi dipeluk pelan-pelan sama ketidakpedulian semesta.

not every sadness is poetic.

some of them are just numb.

like "oh. it’s today again."

same shit different day, aja sih.